Uneg-uneg

yang, memories are like very moving old novels. you read the life-like once are moved tremendously by its striking description of life and then keep the novel in the bookshelf. possibly you will never read the novel again though you will remember the stories throughout your life at the back of your mind.

the novel remains in your bookshelf, and only once in 10/15 years when you want to clean the bookshelf, you may find the novel at the back of the shelf, with many other books and novels. only then you become consciously aware of the stories of the novel, remembering the life-like stories very accurately. Then possibly you will clean the dust from the cover of the book, feel sad and then return the book in the same place very carefully. this will repeat in your entire life a few times.

you may have fond memories, however those memories do not necessarily obligate you to do something. just remember that you are free to take any decision, especially if its about your life, without being influenced by your memories. your memories will remain with you throughout your life, even if your decision takes you to a very different path having no relation whatsoever with your memories. just dont feel obligation because of the memories, because its only your choice, and not the memories, that should decide your course of action.

I have decide my choice in last four and half years and put all my stakes in it. i chose to remain with my memories and picked up a certain course of action. but just because our memories coincide and we share the same memories doest not necessarily mean the you feel obligate towards me. its your life and you are free to make decisions that will make you happy. at some stage if you happen to feel that its not you possible wanted, or you come to the point where your wisdom says that the thing that can make you happy is not the one that you are forced to accept, please give a second thought before you comit yourself. you are free to do that ang no one should try to influence you with the old memories, because after all its not memories that matter, rather what you want is what that counts.

if you feel there is a huge gap between your dream and memories, and those will never converge, its possibly not worth to choose the memories just because you feel pity for your memories.

Just know that I love you and I will stick to my memories, no matter what. but my love will never force you to accept or love me at the cost of your unhappiness, because i breath only when i see you happy…

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GG

disaat gulana menerpa, selalu ada barisan kata menggugah yang kau rangkai dengan indah..hidup dicintai jauh lebih baik dari pada mencintai (Mama, 1998)

*yang, how can i doubt our memories now?*